Don't stop believin'

So our blog is just really boring right now, we have nothing to write about and haven't done anything since going to the zoo. I do work a lot, and I'm hoping that writing right now will save my sanity. Now everything else I'm going to talk about is from work, I want no one I speak to regularly to be upset, I am using my blog as my writing outlet. I have had so many thoughts and feeling lately and I have so much fear of upsetting people that I will often just keep everything inside until I just sit and cry. I don't think many people read my blog until I say something that people don't like, then I spend months feeling guilty about what I think and feel even though it wasn't even the person upset and I can't seem to make it better. See lots of babbling will be taking place here today.
Now I work in a restaurant, so I expect to some degree for people to be selfish, I am there to serve them and make them happy. But ladies are by far the worse. I feel like half the time I am teaching people etiquette. Now at lunch if you are in a rush I say leave the office with the people you are dining with, this way you don't have to lecher me on how hurried you are, and how your friend will be here any minute, and that you must eat now and tip me poorly because you just didn't plan well, and then when your friend finally does arrive don't sit for another hour holding my good table from others who might be willing to open their wallets instead of being tight fisted like yourself. Also, if you walk up and see a restaurant that it is full, don't be surprised when you are told we are on a wait. Believe it or not you are NOT the only one who thought about dining here, and when you finally do get sat, don't think that you are the only one being served, we have a full restaurant and your server is going to be serving other people. Often your waitress will have 5-6 other tables that are just as bossy and needy as yourself.
Now I don't like to talk about my job. Mainly because I don't really like it, and I don't have anything positive to say, I just happen to be really good at it. I think most people feel this way about their jobs, they are just not honest about it. I don't think many of us would choose to wake up and do what we have to do every day. I think we would all like to sleep and hang out with our families and friends, and do nothing. I make good money as a waitress, and like I said I'm good at it. I make old ladies love me, grumpy men laugh at me, I'm quick, efficient, and I know how to do my job to the very best of my ability, don't give me your bad day.
Also in my job I get to serve many church leaders, some good some bad. These men are just people with important callings, they like to go out with their wives, dine with their families and eat dessert and drink cokes with out being bothered. I want a good tip so please don't pester them.
I have talked about tips quite a bit in this post so lets get some things straight. Industry standard is 18%-22%, anything less than that is an insult. You sit there and do nothing, I get you drinks, soups, salads, pastas, meats, and desserts. You can ask me for more water, and new silverware, a different drink, new food if it's not what you expected, but I don't make soda syrup, I don't cook the food or make the soups or salad, my job is to make sure it gets to your table with out spilling all over you, some food takes longer to cook, salad can be tossed much faster than a steak takes to cook and if we have a full restaurant every one's food will take a minute to make, I can't control that, all I ask for is 20% of you bill. The math is easy, and usually not that much more than what you are already spending. Now Yes food should be fast, but if you want fast food, there are many establishments that carter to this need better than a sit down, course by course restaurant.
Well, I feel a lot better. If anyone is still reading this, I'm sorry if I said anything harsh or insulting, this my blog after all and you came here to hear my thoughts, and I did warn you in the beginning. I'm also sick of apartment hunting, and having a dirty house, and having to work overtime every week just to make ends meet and to help my my husbands dreams come true. I'm a good wife, and I work hard to take care of my husband, I'm sick of not having a decent running car, and planning for the future, I like living in the here and now! I'm also sick of feeling more than I can take, and not being able to do anything about it. I sometimes feel like I'm shouting at wall! I am very happy right now, my life is nearly perfect, and I think that is why I get so angry sometimes, we need the bad to appreciate the good, we need to evil to know what is right, we need the sad to understand the happy, and really that is what I think is going through my mind right now, I just needed and outlet.
I hope no one is angry and that everyone enjoys conference I know I will I'm so excited to snuggle with Scott and pig out while hear the voice of our prophet, sadly we'll have to miss Saturday session, but Sunday is all ours. :)